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guess what.

i think i maybe quitting this blog. too much negativity in this blog. lots of sorrow and rintihan orang gila in this blog. i wana start a new blog with positivity. im trying to change myself. i dont wana become emo anymore. first of all, definitely i have to delete all the sad memory right.

i will put my new blog link in this blog as soon i created a new blog.

bye =)

long term mission

dear bloggie,,

im planning to rejuvenate myself
after emo-ing for quite some time, i've realized that i've been wasting my life.

life is short and we should appreciate it instead of emo-ing.

so starting for now, i will try to look at things from the positive side. i will no whine up alone and emo and post lots of emo post at either facebook or blog.

things i wana do for myself

1. DIET DIET DIET DIET DIET. shu shu all those fatty fatty fats. i wana become a more healthy person and slimmer

2. start thinking about myself instead of thinking about other person whereas there's nothing gonna change in this short term

3.start studying harder for better result. i dont wana become a bimbo !!!!!

4. start spending time doing things that pleasure me the most

5. start blogging more often. i've neglect my blog for quite some time and pendamkan everything in my mind till i lost my insanity.

6.start spending more time with my loved ones.

7. start focusing on myself and things i want.

8. start thinking positively and healthy so that i wont harm my mind too much.

thats all for now.
okay. starting tomorrow i'll become a whole new person who look positively into life and being grateful with everything that i have.

bye

im keeping myself from the outside world.
i want my sweet escape.
please time faster pass.
only time can heal things.
i just wanna be alone and figure things out although i know there is nothing i can do.

I WANT MY SWEET ESCAPE !!!!!!

at last

dear bloggie,,

it's been a while since i last updated my blog. i've been refusing to update my blog for quite some time for some reasons that i barely even know.

my life has been tremendously changed since second semester had started. i've changed into a more hardworking person. i can proudly say that IM A NERD now. studies has been getting tougher every each day. im strugling every each day to keep up with my studies. i feel time is so limited in my life. 24 hours in a day isnt enough for me. i just finished my chemistry and calculus test 1. well, i dont know how i did but i think i do better than how i did in my semester 1. even if i get bad result there is nothing to regret because im really work hard already. i wont be like how i used to be in semester 1 always saying i wish.

nowadays my life has gotten more complicated than ever. my mind is so confused. its like someone took out my brain then like kucar kacirkan my mind as tangled as possible. i've been feeling heartache for quite some time. my heart is really pain. i really feel like there is someone stabbed my heart as hard as they can then they will twist the knife as much as they want. my heart really feel ache nowadays and i hardly remember how's the feel of happiness already. i even forgotten when is the last time i feel happy. i just wanted these feelings to go. its so not nice feeling like shit all the time. i just want this to over soon. i really cant stand feeling like this. i really wonder what went wrong. why is it every single thing in my life has to be complicated ?.

omg. i think im gonna to lose my mind. i really hate this and i want it to over fast.

im not really in the mood to crapped already.

i know i sound like a really sicked people who just ran from tanjung rambutan.

bye.