more craps.

dear bloggie,

here i am again blogging about nothing and as there is no any more chance to blog again.so this is my only 87 th post.i cant wait to reach 100 th post.i don't know why.

so, another week more to the newly life that will be formed at uniten soon.excited?not at all.only God know whys.no matter how many times i tell the others that im scared they seems to don't understand it.so meiyi like suddenly getting emo that im going to shift to uniten.she like suddenly SO emo.i don't know why.when im like tengah sad but she didn't bother at all.then when im like done wit sad-ing, then suddenly she like started to be sad.and she give lots of crappy advises.reminds me of the poem If.but this advise is from a small sis to her bigger sis.and she asked me to don't lupa diri.HAHA.im like huh?so i don't know what's wrong with her?she has been acting weirdly a bit lately.

there is still lots need to do.apply for PTPTN, medical check up and buying stuff.so, there is like really lots lots of stuff need to buy and when the total budget come out i really feel guilty for spending so much money because i know all these would not happen if i study the damn form 6 like what mummy wanted.sometimes, i feel guilty for not following mummy advises and go against her and also be very rude to her.but sometime, i cannot stand her because she doesn't seem to understand thing that im trying to say or me the person.i wish if i could be more obedient.so, i promised that i will study very hard to score good mark and make her proud and feel regret that she asked me to study form 6.HAHA.

suddenly, i realized that there is lots of things that i have been missed to post them at blog.like last day of high school, spm result day and the day before spm result day.that would be very interesting.haha.faham faham la.like in everyone's blog will post about their feeling before spm result day only i don't have the chance to do it.so i only have these few days to post this.but if la i can recall what happened on the particular day.

nowadays, i always get lots of chest pains.i don't know why.then start la all the thinking like im having heart attack or maybe breast cancer.but really la, it feels pain like a shot of pain stinging my heart and sometimes i feel like someone squeezing my heart.when i feel all these pains, i will like struggling to gasp for some air because i like hardly can breathe at the moment.seriously and im not exaggerating it.

so, i have aim some few things in my life.before this i don't have any aims and that's why i feel life is unworthy to life.but it's different when we have some few aims.

aims of my life

1. score 3.8 and above of ccgpa point
2. study hard and graduate and get a high prospect job with my civil engineering degree cert
3. be the best design engineer
4. buy a big house for my parents to redeem all their hardworks to raise me up
5. buy a ford mustang car
6. get a private pilot license.(i really really wanted to fly a plane)
7. buy my own personal plane
8. adopts lots of kids
9. join a mission at africa to help the people there
10. travel to taiwan and china
11.learn how to speak chinese fluently especially mandarin
12.build a very incredible building and get a noble prize for it,HAHA
13.bungee jumping
14.see a live MILAN FASHION SHOW
15.be an amatur photographer
16.see einstein's brain
17.be on TV(being asked a opinion doesn't count atleast be a pelakon tambahan in a series or advertistment)
18.fight for woman's right
19.fix the world ? (impossible!)
20.have my own fashion label

i starting to like this blockquote thing.HAHA.

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