T UM PAN G ONL I N E AT P UI HO U SE

dear bloggie,,

now,, i am at pui using her sis laptop to online.i didn't see pui for so long so i decided to visit her at home.later around noon,, i will follow her sis to work because her sis is doing her training at the same hotel and we work in the same shift.

hmmm.got lots of things happen at work place thise week.james is just come back from his holiday and already start working.then,, i met a other captain that is thiban.i didn't see him before since i work ther.it's like my third week of working there only i meet him.maybe he is on a long holiday or something.i don't like this thiban guy because he keep wanting me to be buffetier.i don't want to become buffetier because if u become buffetier u have to stuck in the kitchen which is hot like sauna or air mata panas semula jadi.then i am the type person who sweat a lot and easily.then u also have to wipe like thousand of plates..that day he put me to be buffetier .then i told him that i don't want to become a buffetier then he like very irritated with me and said that tommorow i have to become buffetier.then lucky that day james the one who do the duty assignment and he did't assign me to do buffetier duty.but the next day the thiban the one who do the duty assignment and he accomplished his mission.he assign me to be buffetier.hope that today i won't be buffetier again because they said today got lots of reservations.if there lot's of resevations that's mean there will be lots of plates to wipe.but then that day thiban said that i will be buffetier for a month.then the jusof also like go and scared me said that it like trend when once become a buffetier the will become buffetier berderet deret.

then they all like play me at infront of the reception.then the james keep on tease my hair and do nothing looking at me suffering wiping the plates and he like showing of his kesenangan.then he said he very busy.he tengah busy - body.stupid right.

talk later.now i want to disturb pui.that's the purpose right i come to her house righthaha.

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M A D & M OO DY

dear bloggie,,

i am so boring right now.i wan to shop but i can't!i feel very geram when i think about it.yeayea,, i know i have to get over this thing.is already past right.im really bored la now.im so bored to dead la.today is my first off day from work.*big sigh*.now it's only 12 noon.the day is still long.then tonight the tv have nothing to watch.no bigshot.yea i know what u guys think.yeee.bigshot?why do i like to watch desperate house :guy's version.or casmere mafia : guy's version?haha.i also don't know.but now im like kind of into that series.i feel like watching more.when i watch it for the first time,, i really hate it.but thne now don't know why i like that series.

*big sigh*

i really want to shop la today.
i want new shoes,, new clothes and new watch.i had already plan my shopping list.but now,, i had to spend my time at home.

hmm.today is so boring la.i woke up from sleep straight away switch on the computer to online.i on msn and feel kind of sad when there is no people online at all.i want to find someone to talk to or chat to about my wrok place and working exprience.im also not really in the mood to edit pics.just in the mood to crap,, crap,, crap and crap.and also shopping.haha.

i want to shop!




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F EE LI NG REA LL Y AN G RY RI GH T N OW

dear bloggie,,

yeee...im so very angry and geram right now.i have already waited for saturday,, my first off day for so long so that i can go shopping when i ask for my pay for the first five days from the hr office.but then yesterday,, when i want to ask my pay from the HR office,, the office is already close.all my exictment just dashed like that only.i really wanted to go out midV and shop la.i want to buy stuff.and enjoy the pleasure of spending YOUR OWN HARD EARNED MONEY.*big sigh*.fine la.maybe when i off on the next day i think i will go and shop together with wong or meiyi.

staying at home now,, don't neet to get ready to work make me feel so weird.i used to work already now even though i didn't work for that long,, but somehow i don't use to sit at home.im suppose to enjoy my this first off day to rest or what la.but i thinking of work pulak.

this week,, the cafe is not really busy.although yesterday got no buffet but still busy because there is a lot of roll - in order ala carte.monday,, which is hari raya haji some more fun.there was no people at all.only got eight roll-in customer for the whole day i think.then at the moment i was like so boring and thinking they pay me rm4 per hour to just stand only.haha.it's like kind of evil so i went to find work to do but there is really really got no work to do.all the work is done by the morning shift people.

this week,, the stupid mengatal chef did't dare to come and disturb me already.he is like so disgusting but then he think he is very macho and handsome.he like keep on disturb me till i cannot stand and went to tell kak nurul.first,, i told abang naong.then,, he like didn't really care and said nothing la.no big deal.but when i told kak nurul and almost cry,, she suddenly very anfry and went to scold the ugly chef.she said that she very hate all these kind of people.she also told me that all these things are normal at work place.any work place will have this kind of situation.maybe i just finished my school and haven't to expose to all these kind of things that's why i feel not use to all these kind of things.

*big sigh*.all the guy working at the hotel memang mengatal wan la.they are like really really mengatal.i don't know la.they are like mengatal or friendle.yesterday,, got this one pastry guy saw me for the first time keep on looked at me.then ths guy keep on call my name as erica.he even like tell other people that my name is erica.stupid la him.

on thursday night,, there is also no customer.there is also no work to do.so bbored and free like hell.then abang naong came and ajak me chit chat.first we chit chat about our school life.then bout gf,, bf stuff.then he also told me bout all his bad habits he always do when he was young.he said he drink,, smoke,, gamble and womenizer.then im like very suprised lorrr because he lok like kind of goody and noob noob type of person.he told me about his past life till like very proud of it.then i ask him that whether he had sex before or not.then he said of course la.he start having sex since he was form 4.then naong said something funny.he said that he is 172 cm.then suddenly azham said that naong height didn't even reach 170.then he said ya la he is 172.then they like start to compare their height at the mirror.then the 2 cm is like so obvious.if azham is 174 cm,, i believe la because he look like but naong look like 165 only i think.haha.

then he like start talking bout all the sex stuff laa.and ask me whether i have bf or not.theni said no la.i don't have bf before la.then he like don't believe me said that nowadays people standard 6 also got bf u don't have.then he said that i lie to him.then he want to check my hp to see whether my hp got porny stuff or not.then when my hp got no porny stuff,, he is like kind of disapoint with me.haha.

yesterday is quite ok la.got lots of napkins to fold.just feel irritated because didn't sempat want to take my pay.

that's all for now.

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CON FL I CT IN MY H EA D

dear bloggie,,

im very tired.all those thing bugging my brain.please stop bugging my brain and mind.and all those people.what do u want from me?.im trying my very best to be good to u all.im really trying.but u guys dun melampau batas please.maybe i should think for myself.all the while im only trying to please people.please all those mess and confusion in my mind and heart ache get away.

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A NN O YED

dear bloggie,,

nowadays i feel really annoyed with nearly everyone in my life.someone who keep disturb me by calling me.i really don't want to talk to that person.i feel very lazy have to pretend to layan all these people although deep in my heart i don't want to have anything to do with them.then this someone also try to enter my life again.please don't disturb my peaceful life.i have my own life and u have yours so just keep that way la.

i also very very annoyed with someone at work place.*big sigh*.don't want to mention the name.why this person can like that.keep hunting my dream some more.enough la at workplace i also feel annoyed with u then suddenly keep on appear in my dream.

then also with ths one girl.i don't mind if u are reading this.but i hope u know how i feel.i try to be nice with u but why u want make things complicated.maybe there is something that make u like that.but u can just tell me.i will help if i can.and please don't start back all the counfusion when i ask.

then with the guys at work place really really very super mengatal.they are like so mengatal until cannot diselamatkan already wan.i don't know what's wrong with them.they like to keep stare at me and keep come to me and tell me that im pretty.if im pretty or what mind your bussiness la.think i need u tell me r??even if im not pretty i also don't want u to tell me that im pretty le.they are so fucking disgusting.then i have to layan them friendly and cannot act sombong.

then with my parents also.especially papa.so irritating la him.sometimes i really cannot stand him la.i don't know what is his problem.


please,, please,, please,, i seriously need a get-away from all human beings and be alone in a far far place where there is no single human being.

at the same time,, i also really miss some of my friends.
i so miss pui,, po,, wong and law.

i want to go pui house like i always used to like last time and open her fridge and eat all her chocolates.
i want have a really long long chat with po because she seems like the person who can talk about every single things.
i want to play with wong and like kutuk each other habis habisan.
i also want to chat with law at mcD like the same old time we used to.

hmmm.i really feel like crying right now already.

i also vey annoyed with my hp right now.what is the wrong with u la???try to connect u with the computer cannot!

IM ANNOYED WITH EVERY HUMAN BEING!!

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FO RT H DA Y OF WO RK

dear bloggie,,

my forth day of work is ok and quite boring.the cafe is not really busy.not much customer if compare with other week day.normally week end,, the cafe is not really busy.don't know why.i thought weekend will be busy because it's like holiday and everyone will have time to come right?.i did lots of buzzing.the people like keep on put the plates at my tray stesen.although there is not much customer at my stesen i also had to do buzzing a lot.when there was like super lots of plates at my tray stesen then i like faster walk away and let the other people to do the buzzing.because how la i want to buzzing la.later i break the plates again.then the hafiz saw i quickly walk away then he said"haaaa,, grace nampak je pinggan da banyak,,dia cepat lari".haha.then when i do buzzing the saifuddin like keep on look at me.scared that i will break the plates again.

then i chat with hafiz for a while.but he talk like very mature kind of people only.he don't talk like a eighteen years old guy also.but he said he is eighteen and the half years old.he like keep on nag people only.i very regret to ask the question.if not he also won't nag so much.

then when i was like cleaning cutleries in the kitchen,, suddenly got one phsyco freak chef come near me and stare me in the eyes so closely.he is like so scary and mengatal.

today might not fun working.because lots of people have a long holiday.left the gatal abang lan only.haha.

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ST ART WO RKI NG

dear bloggie,

FIRST DAY OF WORK, 3 DECEMBER '08

i had already start working on wednesday,, the day right after i just finis my spm.haha.hard to believe that im already start working because i never work before and whenever i want to work last time sure x menjadi wan.haha.don't know why.papa help me to get this job.at first i want to work at kampachi.but there is no vacancy at kampach so i work at cafe lavista as a part time waitress.when i first start working,, i have no clue at all what am i suppose to do.lucky asyikin is there working at there also.she help me a lot.she help me to like sesuaikan myself and teach what am i suppose to do.but i like don't believe her only.i scared later maybe she will like back stab me or what at work place.i like feel worry only with her.*big sigh*.however she also help me a lot right?.haha.so don't feel like that to her la.i also like back stab her if i think bad behind her while she actualy help me alot already.

the cafe starts busy at around 7pm.i work at stesen c together with an iban guy named james.he is like ok and frindly la.he teach me lots of things and also teach me how to serve the customer.at first i thought that he is a chinese guy yang sudah dimelayukan.because he looks like a chinese but then he keep on speak malay like really typical malayish people.then,, the abang lan come and puji me said i do work very good la like very got alot of exprience already.working there is quite fun la.then all the mat salleh people are really polite and frinedly.whenever i want to claer their plates,, they are like really appreciate it and said thank u while the malaysian are like so snobish and show irritating look like that.they are like treat us as orang kelas bawahan and like jangan harap la nak dapatkan tips.althought it's like fun working there but i don't feel like going to work again for my second day.

SECOND DAY OF WORK,, 4 DECEMBER '08

*big sigh*.when i woke from my sleep, i don't really feel like going to work again.i don't know why?.the people there are friendly.but i feel like my life is limited to work only now.i cannot go out with them again like every afternoon we used to to yam cha.i don't really feel bersemangat to work.then,, it also was my bad luck day.on that day,, i had to duty at stesen a and b with kak fina.the two stesens are really busy because full of reservations.then i like have to take care lots of customer and also clear their plates.then i clear the plates and like the plates at the tray like terkumpul.then when i have to carry the tray,, it was like so super heavy.if buzzing ok la.the tray won't feel so heavy wan.so i carry the tray loaded with lots of plates to the steward.but as i walked,, lots of inconsiderate people blocked my way.they were like so busy choosing and taking food to eat.really feel irritated with them.saw people carrying tray full of lots of plates, be considreate a bit la.not like the food going to vanished or what.then i also have to walk a really long way.from stesen a to the steward.then some more the automatic doors dala open so slow.my hand some more like want to putus at that time.then at the moment as i just enter inside the kitchen,, right after the automatic door closed,, suddenly,, my hand really really cannot tahan the pressure already and dropped the tray and all the plates breaks into pieces really loudly.even outside the customer also could heard what was happening inside the kitchen.then i heard saifuddin voice from outside.his face is like very bengis.and he said with the bengis look at his face " apa dah jadi niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii??".then got this one very good chef who always ask me to smile quickly help to answer the saifuddin said that the floor is too slippery.that's why i fell and dropped all the plates down.but everyone knows that actually that is not reason i dropped the tray.they know that i could dropped the tray by my own.not because i fell because of the floor is to slippery or what.but everyone is like very good help to cover up said that the florr is slippery.they even asked the steward to put more getah carpet.then the abang lan and yus asked me to quickly go outside si that i won't kena marah by the saifuddin.then i went out la to continue to work.so i work la like nothing is wrong.whenever i saw little plates start to terkumpul at the tray i fast fast carry to the steward.then nothing happen.i did't slip the tray.then again i carried.again.and again.and this time when i carried again,, i can feel that my hand is so super tired already.i really feel like my hands were going to putus.so when i was walking to the steward,, i really tried my best to tahan the pressure,, but,, suddenly i slipped the tray off my hands and break all the plates.and again.saifuddin came in with the bengis look at his face said "siapa pulak ni??"then abang lan quickly call me go out again so that i won't kena marah by the saifuddin.he used back the same excuse that is the floor is slippery.this time,, he assign me to work at stesen c since this stesen is not really busy.together with jusof i think.so i tried to concentrate on my work but cannot.i really feel like crying at the moment.and im like really got no mood and just feel like going home only at that moment.i think my moodyness is shown at my face because abang lan suddenly call me go to the PR to fold napkins.so i fold napkins from 9 to 11 tll kak fina call me go out to sign out.everyone is like very good.they said everything is going to be fine and ok.it's normal thing for people like me since i have no exprience at all or what.they asked me not to worry so much.they also said don't tommorow didn't appear pulak r just for this little thing.so i went home and like complaint to meiyi and cried in front of her.

THIRD DAY OF WORK,,5 DECEMBER '08

i almost cannot go to work because im really late already and x sempat want to buy new shoe.the mummy is like so irritating keep asking me not to go work at the last minute.that it will make me look like so irresponsible.then some more it's only my third day of working already want to take lift.some more if i didn't go to work they must be thinking is it because of i break too many plates and scared want to go back to work.so,, i just went to work although i already late for 25 minutes.when everyone saw me at locker room they were like so suprised to see me because they thought that im not coming.but then they told me that they are glad that i show up if not they will be like very very sad.(don't know whether it's true or not)so.at my third day of work,, i determined to work well again like first day after i was so screwed up on my second day of work.i will learn to do buzzing and if cannot learn in time i will try to carry the plates little by little.then abang lan again put me work together with kak fina again at stesen b.then,, kak fina like thought lots of useful stuff.like how to clear the guest plates in a proper way.she also teach me about the ala carte menu and buzzing.but she only teach little bout buzzing.then i tried to practice buzzing while im alone.then suddenly the very sombong jusof came.i don't know what's wrong with him but his like very sombong to me since the first day and also very irritate with me because i break lots of plates.as if like i kill his mother or what.he teach me buzzing and i feel his teaching is like very berguna.because of his teaching i only berjaya to do buzzing.i think he like look down at me.he suddenly like said me want to berlagak pandai.i don't know la.but he said something very sacarstic to me something like that.i know what he thinks la. he sure like think ala all these newbies tak tau pape nak berlagak pandai.pas tu dah salah tak tau nak minta orang ajar atau belajar.he said this to me "kalau orang ajar ikut,, kalau tak tau tanya orang.jangan kata tak boleh buat,, kata saya akna cuba"like suddenly only he said this to me.i also like didn't before errrr i don't know,, i don't want to do or what.so the cafe start to busy around 7 like that.then i tried to do buzzing slowly slowly.again.again.and again.lucky got no plates break.so i work well again.and i feel very bersemangat and start to love the job.hehe.

however,, i still miss my freedom and outing together with friends.

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S P M I S O V ER !!

dear bloggie,,

on 2 december was my ea paper.so i study ea really hard.i read like for two to three times because i really scared that i could not remember all the formula and definitions.because i usually understand the concept when i study.but in ea.the questions like to ask about definitions and counting.besides there is also no formula given.actually ea is quite easy.but then horr, they like want to make it hard like that purposely put all the crappy definitions and formula for u to memorized it.it's like so menyusahkan people life only.then the definitions also are like so long. then,, when u memorise all the formula,, they like didn't come out all.they like only give one questions that need one formula to count.so like penat penat only go and memorized all the formula that don't make sense at all padahal they like ask one only.so i was late to school.i think im like the latest student.when i reached there also i x sempat want to revise back my studies.the invigilators call us to enter the hall.my place is at aghilan's place.suddenly i was shocked that it was paper 2 first instead of paper 1.then im like geram with myself for not checking the timetable properly.but like normally paper 1 first only paper 2 start right.(in my thought la).like let the easier wan start first only the harder wan start later.i didn't prepare much for my paper 2 la.what i study the day before was like only can answer paper 1 first.everything went quite well except i did lots of silly mistake.i counted wrong and i also crapped alot. *big sigh*.i feel kind of relieved also when the paper is over.so left objective paper.i answered the objective paper properly so that i won't do silly mistake again and hope that i could get high mark in paper 1 because i screwed up my paper 2 already.so when paper 1 is over,, i feel really thrilled and happy and also relieved.SPM IS OVER ALREADY.then i quickly packed my stuff and went down and i saw wong was sitting at the pondok witing for me.then we went to find he beloved santa - claus teacher to get the signature for her NS thing and went to metro to meet the others.i told wong that i had to start work the next day.then she asked me why so fast.then i said because i tell them that im going to be free starting on third december.then she said why my mouth so celupar wan.haha.we ate at mcd.chit chat for a while.then went to metro to walked for a while.po went to her piano class at 4.30.then we walked for a while with the others till 5.30.the i followed pui went home.then i waited at her house for papa to fetch me at 10.that was my last day of spm


the next day i had to start work already.my FIRST day of work.my FIRST exprience of working.

S PM IS O V ER A L REA DY !! :)

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B LO GG I E B LO GG IE

dear bloggie,,

hmm.there are lots of things happen lately.i want to blog about it but i don't have the opportunity because i am busy - ing with spm.and it's also because the computer is spoiled and no one bother.i only can use big sis laptop to online and that is only when she is back from cyber.haha.

28 NOVEMBER 2008,, TH URS DAY
let me start with everyone 'last day' of spm.but not mine.my last day of spm is on the third of december.when est paper is finished evryone went to celebrate the happy moment at pizzahut(infront of the highschool).but i decide to tagged along because i don't want to ketinggalan.haha.so i joined them together.before leaving the school,, everyone was like busy - ing cam - whoring.then when everyone's bussiness was finished we all went to the pizzahut in a group.when we were walking in front of College New Era,, suddenly i heard scretching sound.i thought an accident happen and the tyre scretch like that.but then it was actualy shim shouting.because a useless mat rempit tried to ragut his hp.then shim like shout and shout till scared off the mat rempit away.the mat rempit is like so bloody stupid to ragut in day time,, when there are lot's of people and in an open public place.ok.after that.everyone's mood was like kind of ruinned already.especially shim.he like tengah trauma.who wouldn't.i think the mat rempit also like tengah trauma after heard shim shout till so loud.i was thinking why all this scary reality things happen in front of me on my ' last day of school'.it make me feel scared to live in outside world when i start study college or university.do u get what im trying to say?haha.

but evryone mood turned back to be ok when at pizzahut.well it was a fun day i think.especially the est reports is like enjoy and fun to write.haha.because the reports asked us to write bout nutritions which is ok because can take all the information from biology and chemistry.and it's also like common sense and in our everyday life.before that i was like so worried with what reports question going to come out?maybe the very hard and unfamiliar topics like eartquakes,, or flood or tsunami will come out.well stuff like that la.u know la.est can become very mengada somtimes.haha.

after done eating at pizzahut we went to metro point.at the moment was like raining so heavily.then we had to run from the pizza hut to metropoint.then hang out for a while at metropoint.then everyone went home happily because spm is over already. :)

HAPPY DAY FOR EVRYONE ! :)



29 DECEMBER 2008,, FRI DAY

the next day,, po,, pui,, pohteng,, ping and kuanmaymay decided to go to midV.then i just tagged along with them altough im not exactly finished my spm yet.wong didn't go because she went to sg.wang together with soke yin and ann yoke.then mummy and papa like nag and nag and bising bising scolded me and said "spm haven't end yet go out for what.stay at home at revise study la."but then,, i insist to go also.im like fuck study la at that moment.so,, we went to watch muvee and watched madagascar.it's very funny and hilarious and nice muvee.at first,, we wanted to watch quarantine.a scary or thriller muvee.but then.it's 18 sg.so when want to buy tickets because thought that they would not check,, but then suddenly the rabbit guy asked me and pui for our ic's.so the people didn't let us buy after checked our ic's.so we just decided to watch madagascar only.
we ate teppanyaki for lunch.while i was like enjoying the food,, suddenly i saw a baby cockroaches crawling on the table.im like very ewww at the moment.then we went home around 5 like that.i followed pui bak to her house again and papa picked me up from her house the next morning.

here some pics we took at midV.







on 30,, 31 of november and 1st of december,, i just stayed at home and study ea like hell because to redeem that i had fun in the two days before instead of studying ea.

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OH BIO LO G Y,, WHAT ARE U MAKING ME SO FRUSTRATED?

dear bloggie,,

im online - ing now instead of studying.i still have many fucking chapters to read in biology.but i feel really really very very so so sooooooooooo lazy to read biology.it really crap alot bout our body,,our body systems and environment.and i also don't really care bout biology because i like aim b in biology.that's why im not in the mood to study biology.yesterday,, i studied biology till im very frustrated because it really cray alot and all those crap don't want to enter my brain or my brain could not process a single crap that i was reading.

so instead of feeling frustrated with biology,, i want to nap for a while.while i was aping i was dreaming about all the biology's craps.stupid la.when i was reading,, all those craps didn't want to enter my brain but when i was naping it enter my dream.

at friday night,, idream something really scary.it was biology paper day.the paper 1 starts at 8 am.but then i woke up from my sleep at 8am.then mummy papa were like sitting in the hall reading newspaper.then they also didn't bother to wake me up although im late.then i quickly get ready and asked papa to fetch to school.but he don't want to fetch me to school.then im like had to beg them on my knees and cried to asked to fetch me to school.the dream is like a bad sign only.haha.but the dream really scared me.it feels like happening in the reality.

after studying biology,, i had to study physics which is my favourite subject.i like physics after i finally get to understand all the electricty craps.then i also like thinking,, 'ooo,,this is what u all(electricity craps) trying to tell me is it from the beginning'.haha stupid right?.

i also feel kind of frustated studying physics.because i was like feeling really dizzy after study all the biology craps.i really don't like biology.

OH GOD.please help me to like,, read and study all the biology craps.

okok.i have to off now.back to study all the biology craps.

it's only 8 days more left.i can do it.just stay strong and focus.

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TEM PTED BY THE COM PU TE R NAD ALSO IN TER N E T

dear bloggie,,

yeah yea.i know that i said i won't be online - ing till 2 december.but.i cannot resist the computer and internet.hehe.

spm had already started two weeks ago.so far i still can survive.im studying like hell.

OH GOD.when i think bout my add maths and chemistry paper.i know i can do better.just please give me more time.i screwed up on both of these paper.especially chemistry.i left lots of question that i know to do the essay.because at first i was like checking the paper.then i like hmm.this i know.then suddenly i see the essay is like very hard so i like take too much time to do the essay and forget to write the answer for the front questions.stupid right me??grrrrrr!when i think bout it,, i feel so pissed.

9 days more to my freedom.only 9 days more.i can do it.
just stay strong and focus.

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LILY'S BIR TH D A Y AND SOME CRA P S

dear bloggie,,

I WILL BE OFFLINE TILL 2 OF DECEMBER.DUE TO SPM EXAMINATION.

haha.time to get serious.no more online for me.time to get my fat bladdy ass to work hard for spm.*big sigh*.spm is coming soon.i can feel the pressure already.im so scared.once the spm started no more time to play.must always stay focus.OH GOD.help me to go through this hard moment.

hmm.today we celebrated lily's birthday.and we have a new friend named milly.haha.i just simply reka the name only.sempena lily's name.haha.i don't know what lily want to name the milly.today,, they also belanja me eat.but i feel so segan.haha.thank u guys for the meal.when i got money i will pay back u guys.haha.ok??today kuan may gave me my charger.i feel so happy.so now i could use my hp.my hp 'died' for days already.haha.trhen now i can take lots lots of pics with my hp and play games in my hp.hehe.*big sigh*.but my handsfree is spoiled again!cannot listen to songs.have to listen by the loudspeaker.

here some pics that we took during celebrated lily's birthday.

lily is cutting her birthday cake.

im feeding milly.HAHA

LILY IS MAKING HER BIRTHDAY WISH.

LILY AND AILLIE TOGETHER WITH MILLY.

LILY AND AILLIE.

LILY'S BIRTHDAY CAKE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY!!

let me think first of a list to do after SPM.
1.buy hair dye
2.dye my hair
3.sleep like hell
4.go to pui house and disturb her like hell
5.go to wong house at batucaves since i never been there before
6.S H O P P I N G
7.muveemuveemuveemuveemuveemuveemuveemuvee
8.find charity work to do(i wanted to do charity work since long time ago)

9.try to get my driving license

NONONO.
im not going to work.i want to play like hell before start work.haha.maybe i won't be working also since mummy said don't need to work.haha.

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C RA P PY H OT D AY

dear bloggie,,

today is so fucking hot.seems like someone go and increase the earth temperature to 42 celcius.i feel like dying!

yesterday night,, i had a really bad dream.it's about him.don't know why suddenly i can dream of such thing.i dream that we were sitting in the same bus.stupid dream la.don't wan to talk about it.

yesterday noon,, big sis brought me and meiyi to jusco balakong to watch muvee.i ditched my biology study and tagged along with them.haha.we watched MY BEST FRIEND'S GIRL.staring kate hudson,, dane cook and jason biggs.it's a really nice muvee.got lots of porny jokes.haha.it's 18pl muvee.but the people didn't check mine and meiyi's ic.so we just enter only.the meiyi was so funny.because she scared that people might know that she is underage so she like go jeling the people so maturely.haha.

OH my dear HP.i miss u so much.i miss listening songs from my hp,, taking pics with my hp and also playing games.*big sigh*i.i really miss taking pics.that day went to klcc at night.and the view is like so fucking beautiful.i wanted to take pics of the beutiful view.but ,, to bad.my hp cannot function.so wated.haha.so regret that day i didn't go to klcc with law and ct that day.

*big sigh*.i had to get back to my study.

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ST UP ID S PM

dear bloggie,,

I HATE SPM.I HATE SPM.I HATE SPM.

14 days more to spm.

die la.


I HATE SPM !!

H A PP Y 17TH BIRT HD AY LAWR & POHTENG

dear bloggie,,

today we celebrated lawrence and pohteng birthday.we had planned it maybe for a week.we planned it carefully so that it won't like any normal,, dull and boring birthday party.glad that actually they had so much fun and happy.especially lawr.i think he ponteng his maths tuition.haha.so,, we celebrated it at mcD.we like had to rushed there so that we will get place or else all the places will be occupied by afternoon session students or whoever la.i planned for lawr together with the chinese boys while pui planned together with the chinese girls for poh teng.what i had planned together with the chinese boys was that we had to act cool at him.don't layan him the whole days.but then they like x jadi don't layan him the whole days.im like the only one who didn't layan him the whole days.ok,, so when the clock ticked 12.30 sharp and the school is over i and pui quickly went to take the cake from bitaly cake house that we order the previous day before.actually we wanted to buy secret recipes cakes.but,, the budget is not enough.after taking the cake,, we went to mcD to meet the others.sanisha and fatirah already went there to chop places.so mtv and tohtong like lengah lengahkan lawr at school while po,, kuanmay and ping lengahkan pohteng at school.so me and the others quickly get the things ready.when they reach mcD blind-folded,, we quickly put some cream at their faces.suddenly there was like a war cream happening.haha.so we ate cakes and mcD.after eating it's cam - whoring session.

OK LET THE PICTURES SHOW HOW MUCH FUN WE HAD .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAWRENCE !
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE AND HAPPY ALWAYS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POHTENG !
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAM COME TRUE.
HAPPY ALWAYS.

THANK U TO THOSE WHO CAME !






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STU PID FEE LIN G S IN MY HEART

dear bloggie,,

today is not a good day for me.im feeling moody,, angry,, anoyyed and irritated.i am so irritated by YOU KNOW WHO.i really really feel irritated by the someone la.*big sigh*.i don't know why i feel like this.if can i really don't want to feel like this.then,, today all the aura and my surroundings feel not righ.then when i think bout that stupid thing, GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.i fell so regret.stupid me!stupid la.i feel like shouting my lungs out.everything just feel so not right.i don't know how to let out all the uneasy feeling inside my heart.

stupid stupid!!

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BI - AT CH !!

I HATE YOU !!

I REALLY HATE AND DISLIKES YOU FROM THE
BOTTOM OF MY HEART !!!

HOPE THAT YOU ARE READING THIS AND KNOW WHO YOU ARE !

STUPID AND CRA PP Y DA Y

dear bloggie,,

hmm.there is actually no gerak gempur at all.the time table for gerak gempur exam that they send to me is actually yu hua school wan.but im like kind of sad that there is no gerak gempur.because if there is gerak gempur,, we will study.so it's a good thing.it like make us study even we want or don't want.let's see.because of this 'fake' gerak gempur exam,, i study a lot in add maths,, physics and chemistry already.but not much on biology.i don't like biology and it craps a lot bout stupid body system,, bones and environment.stuff like that la.the not interesting stuff.haha.

today is a stupid day for me.let's see why is it.first,, im like feel really stress in the early morning.i don't know why.maybe the 'fake' gerak gempur make me pressure.then,, today is another fucking hot day.feel like in a dessert.the hotness make me feel so sleepy and sweaty at the same time.i also did a very stupid thing during bi class today.like,, when the pn jamilah want to get out from the class i like shouted "ey,, she don't want to give us our essay paper r?".and she heard it.then she like very irritated with me and she put the essay paper on aghilan's table and went out with a very sulky face.her face also always look like that all the time.haha.then my hp is another thing that like to make my life harder.see.after studying so hard,, i just want to rest and play the games that i have in my hp.but unfortunately,, i cant because i my hp battery is low and i have no charger to charge my hp battery.i also wanted to listen to songs.then like whenever and whoever is using the computer,, i will like run to the computer to charge my hp by connecting my hp to the computer by usb port.stupid and pity me right?haha.

*big sigh*.i got all my trial paper result already.and the overall result is :

Bahasa Melayu : 75 (A1)
Bahasa Inggeris : 63 (B4)
Mathematics : 79 (A1)
Pendidikan Moral : 71(A2)
Sejarah : 84 (A1)
English For Science and Technology : 76 (A1)
Additional Mathemtics : 44 (D8)
Physics : 46 (D7)
Biology : 55 (C6)
Chemistry : 40 (D8)
Science : 71 (A2)
Ekonomi Asas : 69 (B3)

overall : 4 A1, 2 A2, 1 B3, 1 B4, 1 C6, 2 D8, 1 D7

*big sigh*.have to study much much harder for spm la.

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LA ST MINUT E EXAM !!

dear bloggie,,

stupid la.suddenly next week got gerak gempur exam.like so suddenly and last minute only.and i get the news from sms.i didn't even study anything yet also.FUCK LA.but then the gerak gempur exam got no add maths.so ok lor.add maths is like so hard and need to study a lot.i don't have much time to study everthing.but nevermind la.don't need to worry so much.it's only gerak gempur exam right.not so important.but i feel like so bersemangat to study because can redeem my trial results.haha.

ok.gtg.big sis is back already.cannot online because she want to use the computer.

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AN INTERESTING DAY FOR ME

dear bloggie,,

today is quite an interesting day for me.i don't know why.early morning i woke up early to follow mummy papa to market.i don't know what im like so beria beria want to follow them.at market there, i saw lots of nice food.we went to cheese tart ladystall.want to buy some cheese tart since like ages we didn't eat chesse tart.but unfortunately all the cheese tart sold out finished already.so sad. :( i so miss the cheese tart.if buy the chesse tart form bakery, the bakery sells the cheese tart like so super expensive.twice of the market's price.market only sell rm1.10.and the bakery sell rm2.50.see la the difference of these two prices.then some more horrr the bakery wan look like not fresh and not nice.but bought cheese bread which is also very nice and cheesy.and the bread also only cost rm1.10 each.so cheap horr.haha.then after that went to buy all the veggie and foods la.i told mummy its fun to come to market and i want to follow them again the next time.then she said i better don't follow, when i follow i keep asking to buy this and that.haha.but seriously it's fun to go to market because can buy a lot of nice food.like being in a food heaven like that.hehe

then went home.suddenly around 9.30 like that grandpa came.he asked to follow to one of the apartment that he rent to peoples.then at there meet with the people who want to rent house.factory worker.grandpa like refuse to rent out the house to the bloody disgusting guy because he scared the bloody disgusting guy might runaway after staying there for few months and don't pay money like that la.then he and the people who want to rent house like having hard time communicating with each other.then i have to be the translater.then the man who is like in papa age call me kakak ooooo.bloody stupid right the bloody disgusting guy.at least call me adik la.i look that old meh.haha.

today i online 1 whole day because i didn't online yesterday.i update my blog already.:)yea.like finally i manage to update my blog till so nice not need to use all the blogger ugly template.but i take like almost my entire to customize my blog.with all the html codes really give me an headache.but at least i manage to update my blog already.

hmmmm.i hope i won't be online-ing starting tomorrow till spm end.spm is like only 24 days more.actually today want to start study chemistry.but busy online-ing.okok.start tonight la.but so tired already.morning woke up early go to market then online one whole day.see how first la.

bloody lazy la me.

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LIKE FINALLY,, THIS IS FOR SO BLOODY REAL.

dear bloggie,,

oh my goodness!!
finally this is for real.im finally can get over timtim.seriously.when i tell them they don't believe me but really i finally get over him.well, of course not totally.i still think about him alittle.but this is only the starting right.so normal la.takkan i like like him for almost 8 months then can like totally get over him.i wish.hope i can brain wash everything about him or what.i don't know why suddenly i can forget him or get over him.in happen on one particular day.on that particular day i don't know why but like suddenly i like got kesedaran in myself.i like think about lots of stuff around me like studies and especially timtim.then sudden,i think why, OH why la i want to crazy over that timtim so much.we are not good together.and we are like from two different worlds.we maybe have no chemistry.stuff like that la.then starting on that time onwards im like determined to get rid of timtim from my heart.so byebye timtim.i wont feel regret for liking u so long or knowing u.just, i don't know.haha.weird talking.

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im so bloody bored la right now

dear bloggie,,

*big sigh*

i so bloody fucking lazy la want to study right now.but times seem to pass so fast.another 26 days more to spm.i know that i must start studying and focus.but im too bloody lazy.even when i feel guilt in my heart but im also toooooo lazy want to start studying.so far i have only finish study add maths chap 9 and 5 form 5.*big sigh*.monday that day thought want to go to the library to study with po, pt and ping.but the stupid library didn't open.so malang.then go to mcd.didn't really study much also.hmmm.nowadays im like running out of idea to to study already.the spm is coming soon and the pressure make me cant think much except spm is coming and i have to start study as soon as possible.*big sigh*.

stupid spm.

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STUPID CONFLICT IN MYSELF

dear bloggie,,

i think im going to collapsed right now.it's because of my trial results.i fail chemistry.and other subjects,, i like get so super low marks.i only managed to get 5 A's.this week,, my mood is like so gloomy and sad.i get lots of not good an uneasy feelings mixed in my heart and it doesn't feel nice at all.besides,, i also miss that ass hole so much.

i think im like having a pergolakan jiwa like that.like im struggling with myself.haha.like spm is only a month ahead.but i really really feel lazy and not wanting to study.but then my other self said i have to study although how much i hate study.just forced myself to study.but the other part is like so lazy to study and then in the end i become crazy blogging here tell everyone bout the crazy stupid conflict in myself.

spm is only a month away.im so scared and at the same time i also fell so pressured.never feel this pressure before.i need help.or maybe i need an escape.a sweet escape?i really wish that the clock would stop ticking for a month.then,, i want to runaway to somewhere.just keep running and shout my lungs out.OMG!seriously,, i think i really need help.i really don't know how to go through these two months.

i really wanting to get good and execellent results in spm.somehow,, i lost my determination.i no more longer determined like last time like if i want to score straight A's, i will work very very hard to score it.but now,, im like i want to score straight A's.then,, im like just yea and didn't do anything and just wait for some miracles to happen.then,, when get low marks,, melebih lebih want to cry and sad and blogging here complaining got pergolakan jiwa or what la.the world is fair wan la.how much we work hard we will also get the same result la.it's karma.i used to believe this.but now,, i just hope miracles to happen.stupid me!!

this year,, i think i really gone through a lot of hard times.real hard times.

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craps.

dear bloggie,,

i didn't blog like don't know for how many years already.haha.now im like kind of lazy want to blog because of the computer spoil already AGAIN.then must use the laptop to online and the laptop keypad is like so hard want to type.haha.so like got no mood want to blog.but today im so free.so i want to blog lots lots of things.

first of all, EXAM is like finally over.oh my goodness shit.like it's really over.u don't know how relieved i feel.i really feel like hell during the exam.but im not like the really yea exam is over.because the end of this exam is like the beginning of something that is SPM!!!IM LIK SO BLODDY SCARED RITE NOW.U CAN'T IMAGINE HOW SCARED AM I.seriously.i don't know why im so scared but im scared.but im lik too scared till too lazy want to bother.do u know what do i mean.haha.seriously.i always think, laaa later la only start study.there's like too many to begin with and i don't know what to begin first.so, when i can't figure out what to begin first, im like too no mood and lazy want to study.haha.all i did during my holiday which going to end by today is some add maths practice on progression chapter.little on linear law and intergration.haaa.see.that's only what i afford to do during my 1 whole week of holiday.moreover.now im like not pretty sure whether that i want to be a pilot or not.i can't feel the passion like how i felt last time.not like im hangat - hangat tahi ayam or what.but it's because lots of reasons.like im not tall enough.plus, after the add maths paper i really feel that im super idiot.plus with all the physics thing, u know the electric stuff.it's like so hard.but to become a pilot u must be good in all that stuff.and also must be tall.i like jump everyday but also could not get any taller wan.but i really do want to become a pilot.but yet who wants la a short plum dumb idiot pilot!!!!!*big sigh*.but i don't want to give up.*big sigh*.the only person that i know who is really really qualified to become a pilot is mtv.ahahaha.he is good in add maths, physics and the most important, he is tall.

tomorrow school is going to start.im like so scared want to go to school because we will getting back all our exam paper.and i know i won't be getting good marks.im like really scared want to get back all the exam paper.never mind la.maybe this is also a good thing because when i get low mark i will always like get some kind of tamparan then i will study hard like hell then yea maybe straight A's in spm.haha.i hope.keep dreaming la.but seriously.i hope this to happen.haha.

another one more thing i don't feel like going to school because i know that i won't be seeing timtim.he told me that he won't be going to school till november because he has to help his mum at shop in sunway lagoon something like that la.*big sigh*.why sunway lagoon why not some where at kajang.then can go see him.i already like heart break when during exam cannot get to see him.then, now when school want to start already, he pulak want to go to work.that's mean i will not be seeing him for 2 months.one month during exam time and another month he help his mum at shop.*big sigh*.if i know la.that day i will definitely go to kajang and see him.why la i didn't go to kajang that day.now i lost the only opportunity to see him.(i sound like a slut yang sangat mengatal.HAHAHA.)

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