another midnight post

dear bloggie,,

im so dizzy right now.i just finished stalking my old friends from jalan 4 school at friendster and myspace.it's been ages since i get in-touch with them.i wonder how's their life already.

nowadays i kind of lazy to blog.because when i stayed too long facing the pc i will get really headache.my head will feel really heavy and the light from the pc screen is hurting my eyes.maybe the color is not adjust properly.i think it's too bright already.hmm.whatever la.

yesterday i kind of like emo because i don't why.when i sign in msn and chat with few persons but the feeling is still there.im like not in the mood to chat but i don't why i chat with them and ending up the people i chatted with feel bored and whatever.i don't know what am i crapping.

im like kind of emo because on friday i went shopping.i saw lots of things that i want to buy but unfortunately i don't have the cash.i really wish that im a rich person who have gold platinum credit cards.then it would be like in a heaven.everytime when i saw something that i like i would just take out my credit cards to purchase the stuff without bothering to look at the price tag and think do i have enough money.*big sigh*.im not that fortunate to have that kind of luxurious life.not that i blamed my parents or my fate.just that i wish.it's like fate or story that had be writen before we born.like some people are born to be rich and some people born to be not so rich and some people born to be poor.so it's like our fate right.some people are just maybe more lucky than me but there is also some people that are less lucky than me.i do have everything already just that i wanted more because the greed in my heart grow whenever i saw all these whatever stuff.sometimes i hope that i be very grateful with what i have.

but still i still feeling emo.i really want to own all that stuff.*big sigh*

so.despite all my emo-ness,, i want to do a wardobe makeover and blair waldorf stared by leighton meester from Gossip Girls will be my fashion icon.haha.i really like her dressing and everything.she is like classic elegant.some pics of her.








nice right.haha.but i know no way that i can become like her.i don't have the clothes that she wears,, or body that she's having or the classic elegant look.

so im still emo!this is not getting anywhere isn't it.so i just end my this stupid bladdy post right here.

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