LILY'S BIR TH D A Y AND SOME CRA P S

dear bloggie,,

I WILL BE OFFLINE TILL 2 OF DECEMBER.DUE TO SPM EXAMINATION.

haha.time to get serious.no more online for me.time to get my fat bladdy ass to work hard for spm.*big sigh*.spm is coming soon.i can feel the pressure already.im so scared.once the spm started no more time to play.must always stay focus.OH GOD.help me to go through this hard moment.

hmm.today we celebrated lily's birthday.and we have a new friend named milly.haha.i just simply reka the name only.sempena lily's name.haha.i don't know what lily want to name the milly.today,, they also belanja me eat.but i feel so segan.haha.thank u guys for the meal.when i got money i will pay back u guys.haha.ok??today kuan may gave me my charger.i feel so happy.so now i could use my hp.my hp 'died' for days already.haha.trhen now i can take lots lots of pics with my hp and play games in my hp.hehe.*big sigh*.but my handsfree is spoiled again!cannot listen to songs.have to listen by the loudspeaker.

here some pics that we took during celebrated lily's birthday.

lily is cutting her birthday cake.

im feeding milly.HAHA

LILY IS MAKING HER BIRTHDAY WISH.

LILY AND AILLIE TOGETHER WITH MILLY.

LILY AND AILLIE.

LILY'S BIRTHDAY CAKE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY!!

let me think first of a list to do after SPM.
1.buy hair dye
2.dye my hair
3.sleep like hell
4.go to pui house and disturb her like hell
5.go to wong house at batucaves since i never been there before
6.S H O P P I N G
7.muveemuveemuveemuveemuveemuveemuveemuvee
8.find charity work to do(i wanted to do charity work since long time ago)

9.try to get my driving license

NONONO.
im not going to work.i want to play like hell before start work.haha.maybe i won't be working also since mummy said don't need to work.haha.

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C RA P PY H OT D AY

dear bloggie,,

today is so fucking hot.seems like someone go and increase the earth temperature to 42 celcius.i feel like dying!

yesterday night,, i had a really bad dream.it's about him.don't know why suddenly i can dream of such thing.i dream that we were sitting in the same bus.stupid dream la.don't wan to talk about it.

yesterday noon,, big sis brought me and meiyi to jusco balakong to watch muvee.i ditched my biology study and tagged along with them.haha.we watched MY BEST FRIEND'S GIRL.staring kate hudson,, dane cook and jason biggs.it's a really nice muvee.got lots of porny jokes.haha.it's 18pl muvee.but the people didn't check mine and meiyi's ic.so we just enter only.the meiyi was so funny.because she scared that people might know that she is underage so she like go jeling the people so maturely.haha.

OH my dear HP.i miss u so much.i miss listening songs from my hp,, taking pics with my hp and also playing games.*big sigh*i.i really miss taking pics.that day went to klcc at night.and the view is like so fucking beautiful.i wanted to take pics of the beutiful view.but ,, to bad.my hp cannot function.so wated.haha.so regret that day i didn't go to klcc with law and ct that day.

*big sigh*.i had to get back to my study.

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ST UP ID S PM

dear bloggie,,

I HATE SPM.I HATE SPM.I HATE SPM.

14 days more to spm.

die la.


I HATE SPM !!

H A PP Y 17TH BIRT HD AY LAWR & POHTENG

dear bloggie,,

today we celebrated lawrence and pohteng birthday.we had planned it maybe for a week.we planned it carefully so that it won't like any normal,, dull and boring birthday party.glad that actually they had so much fun and happy.especially lawr.i think he ponteng his maths tuition.haha.so,, we celebrated it at mcD.we like had to rushed there so that we will get place or else all the places will be occupied by afternoon session students or whoever la.i planned for lawr together with the chinese boys while pui planned together with the chinese girls for poh teng.what i had planned together with the chinese boys was that we had to act cool at him.don't layan him the whole days.but then they like x jadi don't layan him the whole days.im like the only one who didn't layan him the whole days.ok,, so when the clock ticked 12.30 sharp and the school is over i and pui quickly went to take the cake from bitaly cake house that we order the previous day before.actually we wanted to buy secret recipes cakes.but,, the budget is not enough.after taking the cake,, we went to mcD to meet the others.sanisha and fatirah already went there to chop places.so mtv and tohtong like lengah lengahkan lawr at school while po,, kuanmay and ping lengahkan pohteng at school.so me and the others quickly get the things ready.when they reach mcD blind-folded,, we quickly put some cream at their faces.suddenly there was like a war cream happening.haha.so we ate cakes and mcD.after eating it's cam - whoring session.

OK LET THE PICTURES SHOW HOW MUCH FUN WE HAD .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAWRENCE !
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE AND HAPPY ALWAYS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POHTENG !
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAM COME TRUE.
HAPPY ALWAYS.

THANK U TO THOSE WHO CAME !






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STU PID FEE LIN G S IN MY HEART

dear bloggie,,

today is not a good day for me.im feeling moody,, angry,, anoyyed and irritated.i am so irritated by YOU KNOW WHO.i really really feel irritated by the someone la.*big sigh*.i don't know why i feel like this.if can i really don't want to feel like this.then,, today all the aura and my surroundings feel not righ.then when i think bout that stupid thing, GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.i fell so regret.stupid me!stupid la.i feel like shouting my lungs out.everything just feel so not right.i don't know how to let out all the uneasy feeling inside my heart.

stupid stupid!!

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BI - AT CH !!

I HATE YOU !!

I REALLY HATE AND DISLIKES YOU FROM THE
BOTTOM OF MY HEART !!!

HOPE THAT YOU ARE READING THIS AND KNOW WHO YOU ARE !

STUPID AND CRA PP Y DA Y

dear bloggie,,

hmm.there is actually no gerak gempur at all.the time table for gerak gempur exam that they send to me is actually yu hua school wan.but im like kind of sad that there is no gerak gempur.because if there is gerak gempur,, we will study.so it's a good thing.it like make us study even we want or don't want.let's see.because of this 'fake' gerak gempur exam,, i study a lot in add maths,, physics and chemistry already.but not much on biology.i don't like biology and it craps a lot bout stupid body system,, bones and environment.stuff like that la.the not interesting stuff.haha.

today is a stupid day for me.let's see why is it.first,, im like feel really stress in the early morning.i don't know why.maybe the 'fake' gerak gempur make me pressure.then,, today is another fucking hot day.feel like in a dessert.the hotness make me feel so sleepy and sweaty at the same time.i also did a very stupid thing during bi class today.like,, when the pn jamilah want to get out from the class i like shouted "ey,, she don't want to give us our essay paper r?".and she heard it.then she like very irritated with me and she put the essay paper on aghilan's table and went out with a very sulky face.her face also always look like that all the time.haha.then my hp is another thing that like to make my life harder.see.after studying so hard,, i just want to rest and play the games that i have in my hp.but unfortunately,, i cant because i my hp battery is low and i have no charger to charge my hp battery.i also wanted to listen to songs.then like whenever and whoever is using the computer,, i will like run to the computer to charge my hp by connecting my hp to the computer by usb port.stupid and pity me right?haha.

*big sigh*.i got all my trial paper result already.and the overall result is :

Bahasa Melayu : 75 (A1)
Bahasa Inggeris : 63 (B4)
Mathematics : 79 (A1)
Pendidikan Moral : 71(A2)
Sejarah : 84 (A1)
English For Science and Technology : 76 (A1)
Additional Mathemtics : 44 (D8)
Physics : 46 (D7)
Biology : 55 (C6)
Chemistry : 40 (D8)
Science : 71 (A2)
Ekonomi Asas : 69 (B3)

overall : 4 A1, 2 A2, 1 B3, 1 B4, 1 C6, 2 D8, 1 D7

*big sigh*.have to study much much harder for spm la.

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LA ST MINUT E EXAM !!

dear bloggie,,

stupid la.suddenly next week got gerak gempur exam.like so suddenly and last minute only.and i get the news from sms.i didn't even study anything yet also.FUCK LA.but then the gerak gempur exam got no add maths.so ok lor.add maths is like so hard and need to study a lot.i don't have much time to study everthing.but nevermind la.don't need to worry so much.it's only gerak gempur exam right.not so important.but i feel like so bersemangat to study because can redeem my trial results.haha.

ok.gtg.big sis is back already.cannot online because she want to use the computer.

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AN INTERESTING DAY FOR ME

dear bloggie,,

today is quite an interesting day for me.i don't know why.early morning i woke up early to follow mummy papa to market.i don't know what im like so beria beria want to follow them.at market there, i saw lots of nice food.we went to cheese tart ladystall.want to buy some cheese tart since like ages we didn't eat chesse tart.but unfortunately all the cheese tart sold out finished already.so sad. :( i so miss the cheese tart.if buy the chesse tart form bakery, the bakery sells the cheese tart like so super expensive.twice of the market's price.market only sell rm1.10.and the bakery sell rm2.50.see la the difference of these two prices.then some more horrr the bakery wan look like not fresh and not nice.but bought cheese bread which is also very nice and cheesy.and the bread also only cost rm1.10 each.so cheap horr.haha.then after that went to buy all the veggie and foods la.i told mummy its fun to come to market and i want to follow them again the next time.then she said i better don't follow, when i follow i keep asking to buy this and that.haha.but seriously it's fun to go to market because can buy a lot of nice food.like being in a food heaven like that.hehe

then went home.suddenly around 9.30 like that grandpa came.he asked to follow to one of the apartment that he rent to peoples.then at there meet with the people who want to rent house.factory worker.grandpa like refuse to rent out the house to the bloody disgusting guy because he scared the bloody disgusting guy might runaway after staying there for few months and don't pay money like that la.then he and the people who want to rent house like having hard time communicating with each other.then i have to be the translater.then the man who is like in papa age call me kakak ooooo.bloody stupid right the bloody disgusting guy.at least call me adik la.i look that old meh.haha.

today i online 1 whole day because i didn't online yesterday.i update my blog already.:)yea.like finally i manage to update my blog till so nice not need to use all the blogger ugly template.but i take like almost my entire to customize my blog.with all the html codes really give me an headache.but at least i manage to update my blog already.

hmmmm.i hope i won't be online-ing starting tomorrow till spm end.spm is like only 24 days more.actually today want to start study chemistry.but busy online-ing.okok.start tonight la.but so tired already.morning woke up early go to market then online one whole day.see how first la.

bloody lazy la me.

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LIKE FINALLY,, THIS IS FOR SO BLOODY REAL.

dear bloggie,,

oh my goodness!!
finally this is for real.im finally can get over timtim.seriously.when i tell them they don't believe me but really i finally get over him.well, of course not totally.i still think about him alittle.but this is only the starting right.so normal la.takkan i like like him for almost 8 months then can like totally get over him.i wish.hope i can brain wash everything about him or what.i don't know why suddenly i can forget him or get over him.in happen on one particular day.on that particular day i don't know why but like suddenly i like got kesedaran in myself.i like think about lots of stuff around me like studies and especially timtim.then sudden,i think why, OH why la i want to crazy over that timtim so much.we are not good together.and we are like from two different worlds.we maybe have no chemistry.stuff like that la.then starting on that time onwards im like determined to get rid of timtim from my heart.so byebye timtim.i wont feel regret for liking u so long or knowing u.just, i don't know.haha.weird talking.

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im so bloody bored la right now

dear bloggie,,

*big sigh*

i so bloody fucking lazy la want to study right now.but times seem to pass so fast.another 26 days more to spm.i know that i must start studying and focus.but im too bloody lazy.even when i feel guilt in my heart but im also toooooo lazy want to start studying.so far i have only finish study add maths chap 9 and 5 form 5.*big sigh*.monday that day thought want to go to the library to study with po, pt and ping.but the stupid library didn't open.so malang.then go to mcd.didn't really study much also.hmmm.nowadays im like running out of idea to to study already.the spm is coming soon and the pressure make me cant think much except spm is coming and i have to start study as soon as possible.*big sigh*.

stupid spm.

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STUPID CONFLICT IN MYSELF

dear bloggie,,

i think im going to collapsed right now.it's because of my trial results.i fail chemistry.and other subjects,, i like get so super low marks.i only managed to get 5 A's.this week,, my mood is like so gloomy and sad.i get lots of not good an uneasy feelings mixed in my heart and it doesn't feel nice at all.besides,, i also miss that ass hole so much.

i think im like having a pergolakan jiwa like that.like im struggling with myself.haha.like spm is only a month ahead.but i really really feel lazy and not wanting to study.but then my other self said i have to study although how much i hate study.just forced myself to study.but the other part is like so lazy to study and then in the end i become crazy blogging here tell everyone bout the crazy stupid conflict in myself.

spm is only a month away.im so scared and at the same time i also fell so pressured.never feel this pressure before.i need help.or maybe i need an escape.a sweet escape?i really wish that the clock would stop ticking for a month.then,, i want to runaway to somewhere.just keep running and shout my lungs out.OMG!seriously,, i think i really need help.i really don't know how to go through these two months.

i really wanting to get good and execellent results in spm.somehow,, i lost my determination.i no more longer determined like last time like if i want to score straight A's, i will work very very hard to score it.but now,, im like i want to score straight A's.then,, im like just yea and didn't do anything and just wait for some miracles to happen.then,, when get low marks,, melebih lebih want to cry and sad and blogging here complaining got pergolakan jiwa or what la.the world is fair wan la.how much we work hard we will also get the same result la.it's karma.i used to believe this.but now,, i just hope miracles to happen.stupid me!!

this year,, i think i really gone through a lot of hard times.real hard times.

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craps.

dear bloggie,,

i didn't blog like don't know for how many years already.haha.now im like kind of lazy want to blog because of the computer spoil already AGAIN.then must use the laptop to online and the laptop keypad is like so hard want to type.haha.so like got no mood want to blog.but today im so free.so i want to blog lots lots of things.

first of all, EXAM is like finally over.oh my goodness shit.like it's really over.u don't know how relieved i feel.i really feel like hell during the exam.but im not like the really yea exam is over.because the end of this exam is like the beginning of something that is SPM!!!IM LIK SO BLODDY SCARED RITE NOW.U CAN'T IMAGINE HOW SCARED AM I.seriously.i don't know why im so scared but im scared.but im lik too scared till too lazy want to bother.do u know what do i mean.haha.seriously.i always think, laaa later la only start study.there's like too many to begin with and i don't know what to begin first.so, when i can't figure out what to begin first, im like too no mood and lazy want to study.haha.all i did during my holiday which going to end by today is some add maths practice on progression chapter.little on linear law and intergration.haaa.see.that's only what i afford to do during my 1 whole week of holiday.moreover.now im like not pretty sure whether that i want to be a pilot or not.i can't feel the passion like how i felt last time.not like im hangat - hangat tahi ayam or what.but it's because lots of reasons.like im not tall enough.plus, after the add maths paper i really feel that im super idiot.plus with all the physics thing, u know the electric stuff.it's like so hard.but to become a pilot u must be good in all that stuff.and also must be tall.i like jump everyday but also could not get any taller wan.but i really do want to become a pilot.but yet who wants la a short plum dumb idiot pilot!!!!!*big sigh*.but i don't want to give up.*big sigh*.the only person that i know who is really really qualified to become a pilot is mtv.ahahaha.he is good in add maths, physics and the most important, he is tall.

tomorrow school is going to start.im like so scared want to go to school because we will getting back all our exam paper.and i know i won't be getting good marks.im like really scared want to get back all the exam paper.never mind la.maybe this is also a good thing because when i get low mark i will always like get some kind of tamparan then i will study hard like hell then yea maybe straight A's in spm.haha.i hope.keep dreaming la.but seriously.i hope this to happen.haha.

another one more thing i don't feel like going to school because i know that i won't be seeing timtim.he told me that he won't be going to school till november because he has to help his mum at shop in sunway lagoon something like that la.*big sigh*.why sunway lagoon why not some where at kajang.then can go see him.i already like heart break when during exam cannot get to see him.then, now when school want to start already, he pulak want to go to work.that's mean i will not be seeing him for 2 months.one month during exam time and another month he help his mum at shop.*big sigh*.if i know la.that day i will definitely go to kajang and see him.why la i didn't go to kajang that day.now i lost the only opportunity to see him.(i sound like a slut yang sangat mengatal.HAHAHA.)

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