my horoscopes says

dear bloggie,,

look at what my horoscopes says again.

Are you getting bored? The best cure for an uninteresting life is to take a few risks! So today, try to put yourself in a situation where you could be rejected -- or at least come out with less than you put in. You shouldn't do anything too silly, like spend your life savings on lottery tickets, but you should do something a little risque. Maybe it is time to ask that certain someone out, try out a trendy new fashion look, or try your hand at a complicated gourmet dinner.

haha.its like what am i feeling right now.bored want something interesting and new in life.haha.at least i cut my hair a bit in the front and my fountain back so that my hair wont be so leper.haha.im like really very scared when want to cut my hair again because i scared that my hair will be u.g.l.y like last time.haha.so i also don't dare to cut a lot.i also don't know why i like to jadikan my hair as mangsa.when want something new, oo cut hair.there is something wrong with me.there is like a part of me like my hair being U.G.L.Y.

now im like enjoy reading biology.tomorrow is biology and science paper.so scared but i also don't know why im like also like very relax at the same time.but tomorrow have to go home at 3.30 pm.because of science paper 2.taking science paper 2 after school.

ok.get to get bac to my study.

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bored to death la.

dear bloggie,,

im like want to die already right now.im not really in the mood want to study padahal yesterday my semangat like so berkobar-kobar want to study.*big sigh*.it's because of mummy la, i guess.she early morning wake people up in a very unpleasant way.shout there and here.i want to sleep longer also cannot.please la.let me sleep longer.i really need my sleep.i sleep like only 6 hours a day although i didn't go to school.then, after awake, i try to go back to my sleep but cannot then i woke up and online.well.nothing much to do also.sorry bloggie.just now i almost ruin u.im like so scared.i don't want to create any bloggie already.so lazy.haha.*big sigh*.please someone cheer up my day!!i really need something that can cheer me up.maybe add maths and chemistry.oh shit ls.think about add maths and chemistry make feel even mood-ier.finally i finish studying form5 science and biology chapters.im like so glad.last night i got a really weird dream.don't know whats it about already.seriously im like really bored right now till want to die already.

ok la.i will try to force myself to study.and another one more thing.i lost my nose ring AGAIN.now i only left the sticks which make my nose even more swollen.shit la.why la can lost.*big sigh*.some pictures that i took when im like so bloody boring.well it's actually nothing but just want to upload for nothing because that what people always like to do ; benda yang sia-sia dan tak guna.

my study table is so messy

haha.my pemangkin semangat.

pics.rotating fan.

OMG.im still feeling very bored.please something that can cheer me up pop up now.

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A VE RY WE IR D F E ELI N GS

daer bloggi,,

now im online- ing at big sis room while she is sleeping.suddenly,, i got this weird a very very weird feeling pop up in my heart.i feel this kind of sad feeling like the feeling u feel want to cry because u feel so sympathy like that.i don't really know how to describe the feeling.if u guys want to know bout this feeling,, just online at your big sibling room and look at while they are sleeping.haha.but,, seriously.

when i looked at her,, it make me feel bad.haha.because actually,, i did lots of not good things to her.not to say bad,, just not good.haha.i always like to bad- mouthing behind her back with meiyi.but meiyi x layan me pun.then,, i actually didn't treat her well.i think she treat me better than how i treat her.i don't know why la.why suddenly i feel so sad for her la??!!

i always thought that she has a very happy life.like in a fairy tales like that.she got a perfect boyfriend to care for her.she has like lots of cool friends and she also has lots of cool stuff and the most important she feel good about herself.but actually, i don't know whether she is happy or not in her inner side what obstacle is she having in her life and maybe what i see form my perspective is not correct.i think that she also has been through many shits in her life.

so i always had judge her in person and life wrongly.even, i also don't have the right to judge her life or decide her whether her life is good or not.and the most important i don't have the right to treat her badly or disrespect.maybe.i don't know that she is also trying her very best to be good big sister but u know humans are always not perfect even how much they try to be perfect.

PS :IM SORRY BIG SIS FOR TREATING IN A SUCH AWFUL MANNERS AND VERY DISRESPECT OF U AS MY BIG SIS.

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I AM SU CH A L A Z Y PI G

dear bloggie,,

now im like so super lazy.really not in the mood to study.i don't know why.exam is coming soon.but at the same time i also feel so guilty if i don't study.nut when i study,, my soul feel like very suffered.haha.but really la.exam starts on next thursday.biology paper 1,, biology paper 2 and science paper 2.today,, i didn't study at all.when i look at the book,, i also feel no mood and sleepy.in the afternoon,, i slept from 3 to 6.30.although i didn't go school,, don't know why i can sleep so long.

*big sigh*.need to study study study study study study study study study study !!

yerr.so fann la.please someone help me to study.so super lazy la wan to study !!

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MY N OT SO GO O G ENG LI SH OR B RO KE N EN G LI S H

dear bloggie,,

i know that my english is like so teruk.i read back also feel like vomiting blood.i write like im talking in my everyday life.i very lazy la want to write like in proper or good english.not that my english is good or what also.so whatever la.who is reading just please faham faham la.haha.

im like so super M A L A S right now.i have to study.really really feel lazy want to study.not in the mood to study and exam la.so fann le.i don't want to exam.please.no exam !!

*big sigh*.no matter how much i don't want to exam there still going to be got exam la.so just suck it up la.haha.

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I MI S S B LO GGIN G

dear bloggie,,

i so miss blogging.i didn't blogging in ages already because im busy-ing with the trial exam.this whole week got nothing much happen just exam exam and more exam only.bm was on monday and bi was on tuesday.sejarah 2 was on wednesday and sejarah 1 and moral on thursday.later will break for a week like that.*big sigh*.i think i did very badly la in paper.bm ok la i think.but bi,, i didn't finish my report essay in time la.then sejarah paper 1 also very teruk.i check all the answer with text book,, i got alot of wrong answer la.then moral,, i don't know la how i did.i know my ea paper mark already.i only scored 69.

im not in the mood to sit for exam la.feel so bloody lazy want to study.i feel so sleepy and fann la now.

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A DA Y W AS T ED AT KA JA N G

dear bloggie,,

today i went out to kajang.so at first,, papa sent me to ah wong house at reko.then,, i chat with wong about what timtim had said yesterday,, my weird dreams and all other kind of things la.suddenly wong received message from kuan may that today got no tuition.so the outing and eating plan cancel.then,, i was like huhh.i already at outside,, here at wong house.then nevermind la,,since they don't wanT to come out so i just went to kajang with wong and meet soke yin at metro.we ate at baker cottage for lunch.soke yin wanted to go to kajang because she wanted to tilik her nasib with this one auntie.then,, when soke yin went to tilik her nasib,, i chao first then met ping on the way.talked to her for a while then went to bus stop to wait for bus.at bus stop,, while waiting for bus to come,, i messaged with po. i like tell her that i went to kajang and eat alone.wong didn't want to follow me to kajang because she wanted to study.then i also like add up some stories to make myself look pity and make her feel guilty for not coming out.haha.
hmm.nothing much la happen this day.it's a very dull day.

finally,, i finished reading form 4's sejarah chapters.but now,, im having hard time to read the form 5's chapters.i don't know why i always have hard time to study sejarah.like always.will feel very pressured and my brain jam.i really hope that my brain is a vacuum could suck every single word that i read in sejarah.

i also not having a good night sleep.i always sleep really late because of studying then i would woke up in the early morning.don't know why.my brain also like x sempat want to take some rest.i also woke up easily in not a good,, nice,, pleasant way : when i heard mummy shout in the early morning.i don't know why she like to shout a lot in the early of morning.

just now i chat with law at msn and asked him give me some pics to edit.then he gave a pic of him and sanisha.then i edit the pic till like this.
take a good look at it.what u see is always correct like what u think.haha

when i showed law this pic he was like so fucking shock.don't know what's the big deal la.haha.
i sent him this pics at fs.then he like go and kenakan me balik by curi my pic from somewhere and edit it tim tim i love,, would u marry me.stupid la him.i also send sanisha this pic at fs.wonder what is her reaction after seeing this pic.haha.

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I FE E L L IK E A P I G R IG HT N OW

dear bloggie,,

OMG ! ! i did something and feel really really regret about it. STUPID ME ! !

OH GOD !! what i should do right now ?? i really feel like a pig right now ! everything surrounding me make feel even worst and frustrated.then some more i have to read sejarah.i didn't even read the form 4 wan finish also.then some more still got the form 5 chapters left.OH GOD.please help me.i really feel like dying.im so fucking stress right now!!everything around me doen't make me feel any better.what am i suppose to do.still got alot need to study.but just now what i had did something horrible still bugging my mind and it wouldn't left me in peace.pleasa some one help me !! today my feeling like a bit of x tentu arah.early mornin i woke up from my sleeps feeling so angry and moody.then im also like so super stress with sejarah because got alot need to read in sejarah an im like so super lazy like pig to read and all those craps didn't want to eneter my brain.i hope my brain is a vacuum.suck every each word that i read.whenever it's sejarah exam paper,, i will feel so stress and my brain starts to jam.

I WISH I COULD TAKE BACK WHAT I HAD DONE !! STUPID ME LA !! ALWAYS DO STUPID THING !!

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W EIR D DR E AM

dear bloggie,,

just now i had a very very very very very super weird dream.seriously the dream is so weird.so many people in it.well,, at first i was studying sejarah then u know la sejarah of course make u feel like sleeping right.then i fall asleep.then i dream.i dream everything tak berkaitan.at first i dream about timtim.he suddenly climb up to my room which is very weird because i stay at forth floor.then he suddenly lost.i faster go find meiyi and tell her that timtim climb to the room.then meiyi said she saw he climbing and he climbed like a spider man.then i like wahhh timtim so geng.haha.then i faster like go find him look for him at the window see whether he climb down already or not.when im looking at the window suddenly lily appear behind me offering me her potato chips.then i said don't want and fast fast tell her that timtim climb to my room.then suddenly papa got one call and faster go out after answering the call.he said timtim asked to fetch him at airport.then,, suddenly i saw got one new restaurant in front of my house.then i saw wong wong selling bak kuh teh there helping her aunty.then i like go bertegur with her la.then suddenly i saw lawrence eating her bak kuh teh with ramesh and vincent and some more don't know who la.then wongwong don't want layan me because she said she very busy helping her aunty.then i lost my slipper suddenly.then i want to find my slipper.i went back to my house then got one indian woman looking at me.then suddenly i dream about supernatural.a black man like kena inject with some kind of weird virus.then the guy try to suck all the virus out.as he suck the virus out the virus getting a lot and a lot.then suddenly got one woman inside his leg talking to him telling him what type the virus is.then suddenly i heard mummy voice.she go and wake me up asking me are u studying or sleepin wan rrr.very weird right my dream.why i can dream this type of dream wan.

then yesterday i also had very weird dream.i dream timtim is a futsal coach.he was wearing a wig which is long curly and blonde.then puipui and wong wong went to his training.then i ask them why they never tell me that timtim is their futsal coach.then they say they cannot recognize him.they said he very good at futsal.then they ask me don't fannn them already.they want to practice their futsal and push me away.they like treat me very rude.


why r nowadays i always have very weird dream haa?.
then the weirdness is like super weird till i can't even understand it.i mean it's my dream and im the one who dream it out but i also can't understand it.weird.



kla.


i have to chao already.
need to get back to my study.
(*big sigh*)
sejarah is so boring.
lazy want to read la.

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N ICE S ON G

IT'S PINK NEW SONG
TITTLE : SO WHAT
NICE SONG.

G LA D :)

dear bloggie,,

today exam has officially started.at first i feel very very very scared want to take ea and est paper.then i think i did ok in the paper.haha.i don't know why i want to worry so much.i always imagine that i would lie down on the table crying because i don't know how to answer the ea essay ques.but actually no big deal la.haha.but its also like nerve cracking.haha.very stressed.now i feel so glad and relieved.(*big sigh*)but now must prepare for sejarah,, bm,, bi,, moral,, and suddenly mtv told me that we have to take the science paper on tuesday and thursday.(*big sigh*).now suddenly must study for science pulak.i thought want take finish all the exam only take science paper.but cannot.never mind la.got a lot break mah.haha.sure got enough time to study.

today i saw ah tim.x sempat want to see him long long.haha.i don't want the ahbao already.i want ahtim back.see i said already every time also when i don't like ahtim then suddenly a few days later will like back ah tim.stupid right??


i hope i could scored good marks in ea and est.
hope that i could get a1.
need to study study study !!

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E XAM ST ARTS TO MMO RO W !!

dear bloggie,,

OMG!by tomorrow exam has officially started.and i still lost connection with est.i forget how to write est reports already.i hope tomorrow i will do just ok in the report.and ea also.omg.im so scared right now.my head is gonna burst and my heart is thumping so fast till u can even hear my heartbeat.seriously.but i think everything will going to be ok.right?will be fine.nothing bad can happen horrr.i don't know.


for now,, i just going to study like hell.

wish me luck!

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