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dear bloggie,,

i wanted to blog about something but suddenly i feel blank. i dont know what to say. and as i am crapping out these things i have something to say.

hols is going to end in less than a week. sem 2 is going to start. have to check in back to ilmu on sunday. maybe will be going back early because need to clean the house, rooms and everything. suddenly i started to be in my comfort zone already. i didnt feel like going uniten although before this im like semangat berkobar kobar to get back to uniten. i feel so scare to start sem 2. once the sem is start then everything will be happening so fast then suddenly, ey another sem over again. then i will be seating the bus back again from library after final exam thinking back about what did i do the whole sem.

hols is going to end and i didnt do much in my hols also. i feel my hols is just wasted like that. i didnt apreciate my hols and when i will be having hard time at uniten i will be thinking back about how much i wanted this hols and wish that i could get back my kononnya boring hols.

sem 2 is going to be hard. but i promise to myself that i will be gonna work much harder for sem 2. i didnt want to take anything for granted already. i will start being independent. waking up on my own with the help of alarm although i really hate to wake up with alarm ring in the morning. so annoying !! but as im only planning but i cannot make sure it will happen as i wish. i know. maybe i will like bersemangat to wake up early for the first few days but a few days later i will be lazy to wake early already. then i will always be having self conflict and mood swings at uniten. everything says only easy. but when its happen i will barely can breathe also. everything will pressured me till i feel like killing myself. studies, test, quiz, self conflict, eating problem, financial and etc. arrghh. im not excited to start sem 2 already. suddenly, i can see the harm what uniten can do to me. okay. lets look at the bright side. i can swim =). i have good housemates and friends there. what else. stupid slow and poor internet connection ? then fattening food that can make u have heart diseases by the age 30. arghh. i dont know. im not excited to get back to uniten already. uniten can harm u mentally and also physically. arggghhh. FUCK UNITEN !!

i dont want to get back to uniten !!!