daer bloggi,,
now im online- ing at big sis room while she is sleeping.suddenly,, i got this weird a very very weird feeling pop up in my heart.i feel this kind of sad feeling like the feeling u feel want to cry because u feel so sympathy like that.i don't really know how to describe the feeling.if u guys want to know bout this feeling,, just online at your big sibling room and look at while they are sleeping.haha.but,, seriously.
when i looked at her,, it make me feel bad.haha.because actually,, i did lots of not good things to her.not to say bad,, just not good.haha.i always like to bad- mouthing behind her back with meiyi.but meiyi x layan me pun.then,, i actually didn't treat her well.i think she treat me better than how i treat her.i don't know why la.why suddenly i feel so sad for her la??!!
i always thought that she has a very happy life.like in a fairy tales like that.she got a perfect boyfriend to care for her.she has like lots of cool friends and she also has lots of cool stuff and the most important she feel good about herself.but actually, i don't know whether she is happy or not in her inner side what obstacle is she having in her life and maybe what i see form my perspective is not correct.i think that she also has been through many shits in her life.
so i always had judge her in person and life wrongly.even, i also don't have the right to judge her life or decide her whether her life is good or not.and the most important i don't have the right to treat her badly or disrespect.maybe.i don't know that she is also trying her very best to be good big sister but u know humans are always not perfect even how much they try to be perfect.
PS :IM SORRY BIG SIS FOR TREATING IN A SUCH AWFUL MANNERS AND VERY DISRESPECT OF U AS MY BIG SIS.
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